What is to be Believed
This hallucinatory, dreamlike short film follows an unshown narrator as she walks through the woods to clear her mind. While walking the trails, she sees an extension of her mental sorting in the woods, an image combining the narrators reality, environment, and imagination. The image is of a woman holding clearly fake and seemingly real flowers, sometimes open and waiting, sometimes giving, and other times scowling and scornful. The image continues to haunt the narrator during her evening walk, her memories and premonitions of the future continue to haunt her.
A majority of my dreams take place in the woods, with varying scenes, symbolist imagery, and words dancing/existing to the right and left of the path I'm walking along. Essentially this film, shot over a weekend, was a chance for me to mirror my minds nighttime memory and imagination sorting session.
At the time of creating this film, I was in a complicated female friendship with a woman who revealed herself to others, and eventually me, as a compulsive liar. Time and time again, I tried to see it how she presented it, despite her stories being clearly fictionalized, because I wanted to believe her, justified her reasons, and looked for any excuse to continue believing her - even when her words were harmful. I believe this dream I kept having over that period, was symbolic mirror of the complicated feeling I was having over her 'gifts', her flowers, her fake, manipulative, moving, fabricated words. Several petals, several words, turned into many flowers, many sentences, and an eventual bouquet of manufacturing. This film was very therapeutic and cleansing for me to make and I hope it brings some sort of value (or at least visual stimulation) to you as well.